Sunday, October 23, 2016

weekend is done

Ended the weekend with a walk and a hockey game.  The weather was perfect.  A bit of sun.  Little to no wind.  No rain.  How many miles have we walked along this path.  So many miles, so many dreams, so many heartaches.  Laughter and arguments.  Real life.

Friday, October 14, 2016

Gratitude Friday

  1. This fellow up here still likes to carve pumpkins ...even though he is 21 now
  2. The line up at the medical lab moved swiftly
  3. Mr. W has offered to pick up the  pizza making supplies
  4. We have managed to not lose power this storm cycle
  5. My Thanksgiving flowers are still going strong

Wednesday, October 12, 2016


Guys.  I am in such a crazy place.  I am caught in this incredible tension of knowing I need to make some changes - even knowing what specific changes and the fight within me is the strongest it has ever been.   
It is not so much a battle anymore - I am starting to feel like it must be a surrender - a full and total surrender to a new way of living, seeing and believing.   There is a part of me that is holding on to past with such a tight grip.  I am retraining my brain and I am shocked at the resistance I am feeling.  And it is a feeling.  It is also exhausting.  I am committed.  I have just over 2 and half months until the end of the year.  I have all the tools and resources to affect some serious change.  

Friday, October 7, 2016

Friday gratitudes

  • Blue skies after the storm
  • I fixed the espresso machine 
  • Long weekend upon us 
  • We had a family birthday dinner last night; there is no greater joy to me to have us all sit around the table together
  • Boot weather

Friday, September 30, 2016

gratitude friday

  1.  for the fact I get the weekends off my day job 
  2. for dinner with both of my children last night
  3. for the opportunity to travel home this weekend to see the parents
  4. for quiet mornings in my sunroom
  5. that I remembered to buy eggs last night

Thursday, September 29, 2016

on a fixed mindset and the taking of risks

We have been having alot of discussions about fixed mindsets and growth mindsets.  I am married to a person of a fixed mindset.  I am not of that ilk.  But, what is quite fascinating is that he is starting to recognize that about himself and he is brave enough and trusts me enough to take a few risks.  More than ever before.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

expired and overexposed

London Drugs found my film.  Woohoo.  All that commotion for one roll of expired film.  Turns out most of them were over exposed... ugh.  So many variables.... my canon is old... I have not used it for months ... maybe a year... I had some challenges with the light metre.... not discounting basic operator error either... but there were a few good shots....

Kind of fitting for the way I am feeling these days.  Mel Robbins would say it is not about the feelings, actually Mr. W would share that sentiment as well as my parish priest.  Feelings are overrated for sure.  No one ever feels like doing things that move them forward.  Mr. W will never feel like eating salad rather than pizza.  I will never feel like dragging my sorry ass over to the elliptical machine first thing in the morning.  But, we need to do the work.

It comes down to whether the pain and discomfort of being in the same place for yet another year is too much and you draw that line in the sand ... I will get in shape; I will lose some weight; I will make more money.  And then you have to do the work... and the knowledge that if you don't do the work means you are settling for where you were or what you have or had.

When I think of all the things that we are looking at having to accomplish over the next 12 months, I start to get a bit panicky... and want to throw in the towel.  But, that would be giving up or in and I refuse to do that or be that person.  I am relentless.  If there is one thing I am it is that.

It is officially autumn.  That is always a good time to start again.  Last quarter of the year.  Finish strong Ramona.  Finish strong.